Unarchiving: Amnesia & Innocence
"The Naming of Cats
--names I give to materials, scenes, in my art processes (i.e. Gezi X - from Sacre)
--these cats as cats and trying to organize them
--chaos and systems
--building and collapse
--pop and lock"
Scores in the studio:
-I played with shaking, from an easy subtle vibration to chaotic throughout my whole body. I tried being “systematic” with my shaking…having a wave of shaking begin at one extremity like my finger through to the other fingers, the hand, the wrist, forearm, arm, shoulder, upper torso, head, etc…until the wave left out of a finger on the other side. I tried holding two different shakes at one time which necessitated core stabilization to not have the frequencies dampen each other. I tried holding three different shakes at one time and then four. Of course working with extremities (limbs, head, etc) made this more possible. I went from major chaotic and sporadic shaking everywhere to sudden changes into a focused and controlled shake and then playing with the dial of chaos up and down.
-I pointed to things and named them while dancing. Could the objects I point to be integrated into my dance…or more precisely, could my thoughts and language processes be as fast as my moving and dancing body? The answer is simply no. Gibberish prevails quite quickly. Pure sounds prevail too like utterances rather than words or word formulations. OR, the same words keep recurring because the mind wants to lock something into place in order to have something to react with. I hate this score. I’ve done this before, and I hate to give my brain too much work to do…the mind/brain work of trying to formulate words while dancing easily lessens the quality of being in the body. However, dancing while trying to recite what I remember of the T.S. Elliott poem (and making up different parts of the poem and silly names and cat descriptions) seemed to keep me busy and also in my body for a while. I felt like a kid playing by myself.
Funded by the Federal Government Commissioner for Culture and Media within the framework of the initiative NEUSTART KULTUR, aid programm DIS-TANZEN by the Dachverband Tanz Deutschland
